Crossroads

In my long  Journey living with being autistic and living with mental illness.. the road is NOT an easy one. I grew up into a family that chose not to acknowledge that mental illness did not exist so growing up my fight with it was pretty much me and my best friend meredith by my side. It’s hard when you get so misunderstood throughout your life and it makes you feel insignificant and you finally are at the point where you are the outsider looking in.

So what can you do?  That is a question that sticks in my head all the time.. I have decided God made me this way for a reason and for a long time, I did not want to accept myself and then came to hate myself. I think there was actually a point where i refused to even look in the mirror because the image of myself scared me so much. Then i came to the revelation one day that i was so busy trying to live up to everyone’s expectations that i had lost who i was and it was then i decided to simply STOP!!  I did not care what people thought about me and i really didnt give a flying flip about who i was expected to be.. I was going to be what i wanted and people could either accept me for who i am or they can just stay the hell away from me because seriously the only one in this life who can truly make you happy is YOU!   The path and journey is different for every individual person so why should we try attempting to take another path other than our own? Because if you really think about it if you go down that other path then it is only going to end up in what i call an “EPIC FAIL” situation and that is just a path to more disaster, more depression, and more insecurity about yourself.. I Live by the motto “treat everyone how you want to be treated” because i know what it feels like to be treated like you are nothing. I know how it feels to be the underdog and in my view of thinking I never want anyone to feel that way. So I guess what i am trying to say is ” Be who you are not what everyone else wants you to be”  and when you can start accepting yourself for who you truly are then Life gets much easier because i my eyes No one in this world is better or worse than anyone else.. Everyone in this world has had a form of mental illness in this life and i call it “Low self-Esteem”  Everyone has had at least one negative thought about themselves in some way. So if you really and truly look at the world, Are we really any different from one another?

I rest my case and Have a very Blessed day